I haven't posted on here in a while. I would like to say it's because I have been very busy...but that's only half true.
I spent this past weekend in southern Ohio visiting friends and celebrating Tony's birthday. I was some of the best fun I have had in a long time and it was much needed. It was nice because for the first time in a long time, I really let myself go. I felt like me. And maybe this move to Kentucky was the thing I needed just to get me back on my own two feet again. I know there are many days that I wake up and I ask myself why I did this and if I made the biggest mistake in my life, but there are more times than I can count that I simply feel at home, even if not in my location yet, definitely in my own skin.
Back to this weekend. I had an amazing time. I partied just the right amount on Friday night and met some amazing people. I rode a motorcycle for the first time since I was a child. I had great talks with old friends and I laughed more than should be legal in the state of Ohio. Overall, it was a weekend unlike any others. I wouldn't erase it for the world.
It's funny how one weekend can turn your life so upside down. In all the fun that I had, I realized a few things. FIrst, that I have the most amazing friends in the world. It's so cliche to say that, but what I mean is that I have found the most wonderful people who compliment me in ways that I have never found in others. They are my soulmates. I also realized that my gut feeling is always what I should trust. I usually am always right the first time and the second guessing is what messes it all up. Like the first thing I put on is usually always what I end up putting back on and wearing. I knew myself and who I wanted to be in high school and in college I kind of played around with that, but in the end, I came out being the person I went in as. I wanted to work for a magazine going into college and then I switched so I could do styling, when really, I want to be an editor still. Little things like that, I should always trust my gut feeling on. So, hopefully this new mantra of trusting my first instinct will make me a better person. I'm crossing my fingers.
During my time here in Kentucky I have comprised a "TO-DO" list of things I want to accomplish. I am hoping to partly use this blog to document those things as they come and cross them off accordingly. So far , it reads:
1. Get a new job
Forever 21 isn't cutting it. Not enough hours, not enough pay, and it didn't turn out to be the dream job I wanted it to be.
2. Enroll in classes
While I'm still not sure the process of how to get classes for my major, I am still going to enroll somewhere (community college? Louisville?) and get all my other requirements out of the way and from there, I suppose transfer to UK or some other place that will offer me what i need.
3. Save up for presents for myself
Tattoos, Auto-harp, this one pair of shoes..you know
4. Do some traveling and sight-seeing
kentucky, and especially Louisville has some pretty awesome things to see and do. I hope I can manage to do most of them in the appropriate time. Also, Kentucky is pretty close to a lot of other places, so hopefully I can pull off some day and weekend trips, too.
5. Make some friends
They don't have to be best friends...just some companions.
6. Work on my guitar-playing and harmonica-playing skills
Any takers interested in forming a folk band (or Bob Dylan Tribute band lol) apply here!
7. WRITE!
As much as possible and not just silly things like I am doing now.
So far, that's it. I'm sure I have left off a few things from the list, but they'll come to me later, and I will need more stuff to write about (seeing that my life is not all that interesting) so it will come in handy. Well, I'm off to try to enjoy the sun and make plans for DERBY weekend!
-g
